I think I am going to start a detoxing process to get you out of my system. My crush for you no longer seems healthy.
Funny enough, even as I write this, deep down in my heart I know that I’ll never let you go. I’ll never fully let you go. For this is not just a crush. I’m in love with you and this love runs deep, baby. Deep enough that the river can never run dry. There will always be a drop hanging on, hoping in faith.
So I guess I am saying that me detoxing, is me learning to love you from a distance. You are my one. My it. It’s either you or no-one else – which sucks because that would mean, I might never get married and I do want to get married someday.
It’s funny how I made that decision before I fell for you. How the next guy I am to love will be my last. I certainly am tired of this back and forth of relationships that keep on failing. It was perfectly great when you came along. My heart skipped in delight at the fact that you are a very much suitable candidate of the very man I want to be with for the rest of my life. You were that and more. You are perfect (with flaws – but perfectly flawed).
However, I am now at my wits end on what to do with my emotions and all these developments within me. As it might turn out that I am not the perfect one for you. I’ve always wondered about that. Like what kind of person do you want and am I it?? Do I fit the criteria?? I just wonder. Will I ever find out?
– Miri 💞💓💖❤️💕
“Pain is temporary. Quitting lasts forever.”