I have been struggling with what to do with you. Especially, my feelings for you. What am I to do with them??
You once asked me, ‘why I wanna know the certain things that I want to know about you’ and well I answered curiosity. Well… of course I do have motives beyond my curiosity as I want to find out some things. As I said to you, I am trying to figure out where I should place you in my life. All I know is that I want you in my life, however I’m kinda not sure as what.
I’m uncertain as to what kind of relationship I should have with you. Of course, I would prefer a romantic one but I’m not ready for a romantic relationship right now. I’m currently leaning towards friendship though (lol I’m friend zoning you – but chill it’s not permanent), however the fact that I have feelings for you makes it tricky. I guess I don’t know what to do about you, because I love you but I don’t want to be in a relationship right now.
I also don’t want to lose you in the sense that you’re not in my life at all in someway. Considering the fact that what I want is only in the future and I cannot commit to it right now.
So I’m trying to figure out how to keep you in my life with the hope of the future I desire manifesting into reality. I mean this time could also be beneficial in the sense that we could get to know each other a little better. Would it be selfish of me to want to keep you in my life like that??
“It is one thing to be clever and another thing to be wise.”