One of my biggest weaknesses is the fear of criticism. I do not do well with criticism. It makes me feel small and inadequate. I somehow always feel like I’m being judged too harshly and my efforts whatever they may be are undermined and unappreciated.
This is an insecurity that was conceived in my childhood. From the harsh words I would always receive from the adults around me. My mother never failed to often remind me how much of a disappointment I was. In her eyes I could never do anything right. I was, still am an embarrassment to her. Whatever I did was not good enough. She had very high standards, and I unfortunately could never reach them.
I have realised that I am still vulnerable to outside influence. To outside judgement and criticism. So in the spirit of putting myself first as I’m learning to love myself as I am, flaws and all. I am creating boundaries, until I am strong enough, I am limiting the amount of people I am exposing myself to. As from now on, I am guarding my heart, for I too do matter.
“Our greatest freedom is the freedom to choose our attitude.”Unknown